A Night Out?

As my birthday draws closer so does the pressure for me to go out with my friends. I have not been away from Princess P for more than 4 hours since she was born 3 months ago. It's not that I haven't had the opportunity, it's just that I don't want to leave her. This was also one of my biggest factors for not going back to work after she was born. Many people have told me that it's just because I'm a first time mom and it will get better as time goes on, but so far it hasn't. If I did go out she would be left with either of her Grandparents and I know that they would take exceptional care of her, but I just feel like I know whats best for her. I know the signals when she is hungry, I know what it means when she sucks on her fist, I know how she likes to be held when she is tired, and they don't. I really would like to go out for my birthday but maybe just to a nice dinner and not a night at the club like everyone wants. Also I don't know if I would feel comfortable being at the club again now that I'm a mom. Not that mom's can't or shouldn't go, I think I would just feel out of place. I don't know I still have a couple of weeks to think about it, maybe I will change my mind.